Saturday, May 13, 2006
Been a quiet morning, and a tiring one.
As I sat infront of my computer at my work place, I could not help nodding off. I had came in at 6am this morning for work. It was not that bad to work up early for work, except I came in 5am yesterday, slept at 1.30am this morning, and to make matters worse, I still have 12.5 hours to go before I can knock off work. Maybe 13 hours, but I do not tink that differs much.
(Right now the song on radio is "ni shi wo zui shen ai de nu ren"... Really love this song as it reminds me of a girl in my secondary school, a girl I have never had a chance to speak with, and a girl I think I will remeber for a very long time...)
Recently I found myself had been working hard, at least harder then before. I guess it was because of those goals that I had set for myself, just before the beginning of May. I was not really sure of the reason(s) behind this. Is it because I want to find out how far I could reach if I put in effort? Or is it that I am finally determined to shrug off of the live I have been leading so far? Either way, I think it is positive, only that there is a big big problem: I will have to change myself.
I do not mean a makeover of myself or what, but rather my views and perhaps my perception of life. I believe in a perfect world, where lifes were neither ruled nor determined by money. Man lives because of their instinct to live, to survive, with the odjectives of finding happiness in the process. That was where the only hierachy exists was the food hierachy of nature. People helps one another because they simply want to, and they saw no one as an enemy. But what I am doing now, to try, and "live" in this current world, is the fueling of the destruction of "perfect world". *sign* Perhaps it is just too naive to believe in that, and I am saving myself by dealing with the damages blown by reality.
Ya.
It is the reality which we live in, not the dream.
it is just sooner or later
9:17 AM
Monday, May 01, 2006
Yo
For people who knows me, they will most likely to know that I yo a lot. I like to yo as a greeting because it sounds cheery enough to me, and maybe will cheer up others as well. (Haha). Anyway, yo to whoever is reading this now, which happens to be my first blog of my who-knows-how-long life.
So as part of my introduction to this unattractive blogs of mine, I will like to make clear a couple of matter to the readers:
1) What I will post will not be all true. I might key in anything unintended, like if I fell asleep over my keyboard, then maybe what you would read would be the scenarios of my dreams. Ok, I know it is lame, but lame is what I am. (Lameā¦) So whether they are true or fictitious, use your best judgment.
2) I will hereby admit that my English language sucks, so please pardon me if there is (ok, are) errors in my words or sentence structures. Most importantly, if any of you spotted one, do not, I repeat, DO NOT mention it to me or anyone else, or I will take that as a direct challenge to my ego.
3) Basically I am a very weak and busy person, thus I might not find the time and energy to post frequently. To avoid the trouble of entering the site and finding nothing new, please only do so if you are extremely bored, and preferably over a period of time, says, a month.
I will end it here.Bye bye.
it is just sooner or later
7:36 PM
haiz...
I am bored. My life is dull. I need something to brighten it. Please give me advise somebody. Save my soul from becoming sucked into those meaningless and endlessly-routine lifestyle of a city-dweller. Be it an adventurous, thrilling or romantic experience, anything but this sad sad sad life of my now. I need changes to my life. Change may be a difficult element of life, but a essential one too.
There is no consistency in this world. It is full of unpredictabilities. This is because "change" exist. Though we benefits from it, we are also victims of it. Life is created, life is taken away. You possess, lose possess, repossess.
But if you ask me, I will say until now changes have made my life better. How i wish it will remain so for a very long time.
You can expect change, but you can't foreseen it.
it is just sooner or later
4:36 AM